+'.'+ Back to blog +'.'+ Probably god really wanna me to be strong. He put me under alot of stress For now i have to be under medication for six month and every 2 weeks And for since the operation i feel fatigue very fast and my migraine Worst of things i put on weight. nothing good happen to me... kling, shan.... regret ba asking me to blog.. haa all you can see is tragedy... by the way... i saw your blog, ahmei.. times fly huh... 22nd months already..
Hi everyone? how you guys doing? Hope everyone is doing fine ok...
Phew... haha i took about half an hour to log in to this account haha cuz i have
forgotten the log in name and password.. keeke... thanks got i am able to
retrieve it....
Just back from May B'day celebration.... Well its 3 month up to date now....
Have been ignoring my this blog for that long without realising it... Actually i
really have alot of things to share and talk with you all.. but just too bad by that
time my comp really dies on me.... Hai...
Firstly, i had my operation on 17 of july 2007. First time in my life ever been
to operation theather and had my first anaesthetic. Its scary.. but thanks god its
over now..thanks for all the encouraging words... It really encouraged me alot.
Thanks for those who came and visitted me. Yiting,Joey,Suni,Shan.Quan,Ivo,
my boss family and my family.
The bond was stronger when you are just away from blink of death. I remember
the first time i come to when i woke up from my anaesthetic is
" i wan to meet my family" i keep repeating it to the nurse, though i haven really
fully awake yet.
And upon seeing my friends and family they all i broke down in tears...
At that moment i really realise its really good to be alive!!!
But just i thought when everything gonna be ok after my operation, its beyond
my prediction again.. sob sob.. i really cried man... feel so despair...
so disappointed and sad.. or can be said.. scared.... but well.. the fact is like that..
i just gotta to accept it.
on my own.I know he wants me to learn how to learn myself. And i prove it!!!
i am alright on my own.
Thought i admit there are alot of friends and family who keep giving
me moral support.
i gotta go backhospital for blood test. So i think blood test is no longer
painful for me! Pathetic huh....well but not pitiful....
keep attacking me.Just last week, I got it every two days..
whenever i got migraine i always very pessimistic.I did thinking of giving
up... its because the pain is so unberable. its even more painful than the operation.
do you guys believe it??
sometimes i got so many things to whine... but the moment when i am
blogging i really forgotten what to write already. I realise i am not true
to myself either... i can cheat myself. i cheated my own feeling...
i treat everything was ok.. but its not.. I don't want to cheat myself anymore..
CAN I?????
i would like to write something happy but all happen recently was
all this.... I feel like disappearing from you all ler but i just cant bear to ignore
your msg... hehhe but well well i am back here again ler lar. aha
what naggy blog right? welll i shall post it first now and next will be the pics and
the happy things ok... heheh Wish you all happy o...
I am happy for you this might sound weird but this is from my heart:P
